Week 3 has me going WTF?!

...In both good and bad ways. I'm going to make it more of a list than an essay.

As for the good:
1) I am seeing and feeling DRAMATIC strength increase. Each and every weighted exercise has been increased in weight this week - except for the Leg press. I attribute this to the fact that I really did start off too heavy. I could barely walk down stairs or get out of bed for the first week and a half after pressing 220lb leg press reps.

2) Theres this defined line in both my shoulders that wasn't there before! When I raise my arms or move them in any way those lines show up. Something going on with my deltoids that I am in love with.

3) I actually look forward to going to the gym and kicking my own ass. I can't imagine NOT going. It is now that time of day that makes me feel the most human (besides, of course, cuddling with my kid and the dogs after work). Please dear gods don't ever let me fall out of this momentum I have created for myself.

4) Girl stuff for 4 and 5 here. Men, if you are reading this and you don't like the vag talk... move on :0)  Okay, so I LOVE that all of this working out is making me not have a period. No, I'm not pregnant, LOL. I've heard that this is possible - hardcore working can = skipped periods, but YEEEHAWWW!!! I am living the dream, baby!

5) Girl stuff that's actually serious: Ever since I got pregnant with my daughter I have had this crazy discharge that NOOOOOO... is not at all related to any kind of disease other than endometriosis. I have had all sorts of surgical procedures to get rid of all the symptoms associated with this but they inevitably come back - severe cramps, prolonged and super heavy periods, uterine swelling and pain, pain with intercourse (at one time I did have a boyfriend believe it or not), and this weird discharge that made me feel really insecure about myself, especially when it came to intimacy, Everyday for the past (almost)13 years I have had to deal with this discharge. Here's the amazing part: No doctor ever said "hey, go workout like an insane person and it will all go away." They should have said that because, guess what... it has!!! No pain, no cramps, no heavy, prolonged period (none at all for that matter), and the discharge is about 95% gone, I'd say. There is some scant amount here and there but... yea.. my whole life is changing .. my insecurities, the things that make me feel worthless and gross are going bye-bye. All because I thought it would be a good idea to try a BFL 12-week challenge.

I guess you could say I am literally in tears - all happy tears!

Now for the bad stuff:

1) The support system I thought I had is pretty much 1 person strong now, being my daughter. According to everyone else I am a typical, gym-obsessed douchebag now. Why? Because I go to the gym on my lunch break and on Sundays instead of sitting around getting fatter and then being an asshole to everyone else for it because I am unhealthy and hate myself? Well then great, I'm a douchebag. My sister actually freaked out on me today because I was taking a picture of my calves. I guess I am super lame and everyone is sooo embarrassed for me because I'm a female meathead now. Whatever, when I am done with this challenge you'll be hating me even worse!

2) That's actually the only bad part. But it makes me sad ...